The journey of life you really have to master the game.  Sometimes the days are really long.  The mind is racing and out of nowhere tears. I kept wondering why? For me I think I have figured it out. It seems each time I have these tearful moments my life has flashed before me and it makes me sad.

Reason being, I am not happy with my life and where I am standing.  Looking back at all the mistakes along with the choices and decisions  on how to correct my so called mistakes.  Looking at myself is very sad.  I have so many should of's , could of's and would of's .  Sometimes thinking purpose is suppose to be this grand thing and I am not on it.

I tired of the tears but I also realize they will never go away. I had to look at all tears are not from sadness but some are from joy, peace, love, and being so blessed. I made a choice and a decision to focus on just the sadness.  Looking in the mirror the unveiling of self is powerful.  

​Tears if I let it leads to healing, mind opening thinking and some peace.  

Why healing doesn't have a time line? Question I always ask myself when I can't get over the next thing that has happen in my life.  Do we ever heal from anything totally? The next question I am seeking the answer to.  Trying to understand, I have to look backwards to move forward.

Moving backwards there is a chance of getting stuck. This has always been my problem. I get stuck in that old hurt or pain now I have set myself back from my current healing process.   People sometimes don't understand your process in healing because it is not their process. I know everyone have heard someone say "Get over it" or Get Pass this".

Think of healing like a wound. Some wounds heal quicker than others and some internal wounds never heal but we carry time in the shadows of our hearts and mind.  Healing is all an individual process in that person's life.  People who heal quicker than others think something is wrong with your process of healing.

To me there is no time line.  Also I believe you don't have to stop living because you are still healing. Life will continue to be a journey of experiences.