who am i

The world is really making me feel confused. I am feeling like I am obsolete. Am I wrong for being different? I don't want to be like everyone else. I want to really be free to be me but....who am I? The conversation with myself is an ongoing situation. I am thinking all these years and all this time I should know who I really am.

Being in a state of confusion got me into thinking and searching. The first place I begin to search was within. The mind is a beautiful machine with a lot of control. I couldn't believe how much me vs me in my mind contributes to my confusion.  It doesn't even starts there. It started before I was brought into this world. My mother. She carried me in her womb for 9 months. So what was she thinking and feeling?  Then followed by having to be taught everything.  Now I am being molded, shape by her and her family environment. My believes, character, fears, thinking process etc.... Then I begin to add who I think I am or suppose to be.

Years have passed now, I am still wondering who am I? This journey leads me to the Bible. There are chapters and chapters of wonderful things that said who I am and who I am suppose to be. Here's the thing I have to believe it. I have to create it.  Who I am now is what the world has created. I have to now reinvent myself to be who I truly believe I am. The steps all begin in the mind. Now I understand what it means to renew your mind.

Dig deep into yourself, take the journey and find who you really are. You will truly begin to fly. 

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